Failed math again

y me, y am i always the one whos the worts in math in the class......i failed again...like hell...i cant get anyting goin this few days, i duno y...whats wrong with me...mayb i fail chem too....y y y!someone tell me...why do i fail everything i do?what is my problem...i lost my way on the road of life...i have so many things that i got to do...SAT,Piano,School,Band... seriously i hate being hardworking,but i dun have a choice...this is life...sometime i hope that i m not born...so i dun have to face all this pressure myself,...sometimes i wonder y cant i be born later, or earlier,when the competition is not so great in the world.....y,,.......y......y......??????my SAT i m goin well. in skl, i guess everything is fine except for chem and math which i need more time to cope with it.but i m trying my best to do so, and this holiday is a chance for me.....to get everything right...on track.....at this moment i dun feel like living anymore.....because living is so hard, mayb dying is better,because when we go to heaven, we can enjoy and not face all those thing i hate anymore........mayb i should say goodbye, i want to,and i thought of it too. i want to find the real me, the guy who i always was, and not here struggling,.....because i m sick of it........and i had enough......of life.........well i think about it,i fail math,is it because of the band i m in?yes i guess so, it wased alot of my time, i m quitting after the performance, i dun need to be famous....whats the point, when it ruin my homework....?.....

ARGH!!!dun feel like living anymore