i got the gayest hair cut of my whole fucking life, duno y my mum likes that, i have my style, now its broken....damn....nvm...cant change it
today i talked about university with my mum, she said once i left home, many things will be different, i have to learn to drive, cook. etc. thats what sunny said. hes back from Singapore for a week, as he is having holiday there. and i just found out that my SAT teacher is like 5 years older than me! wow! anyways hes cool, i think he is from Colorado university not sure though, he said hes from Penn state. lol...

but i want a better life, i m tired and sick of everything.
thanks sunny for all the food and drinks from Singapore, my brother is kind, i never notice that, he is somewhat like me, the personality, but not really the same. i guess i am way to kind, and thats why people wants to hurt me. Because thats is what i m told from young, we have to do good things, not bad things, i guess i need to hide, hide from all the attacks and insults from others, and find my own life. SAT i m not sure if i can make it or not. I dunt dare to take another test by myself, because i dun dare to see the results, i dunt...i m not sure why, but ever since the last few months of my 16th years old, i start to be less intrested in everything, and also my temper dropped dramatically, nothing pissed me off as easy as before, i m not sure what cause this, but i am sure that i am changing, changing into someone who i dunt even know who i am now......