First day of 2009

alright one day is gone...skl in 4 days...finally. today i played piano did SAT as usual...but i guess i need to imporve on my critical reading section for SAT..i have being getting lesser than 650....,cant be in that way..that sucks...although i m geting higher than 1800 for SAT,but my math varies around 650-700...need to improve also...because most universities weighs that mostly...,but still over results also quite important...i need to be consistent...just like for bball, my way of shooting always changes at different, which i need to maintain it...i can score...but its not good enough,,tme owning some chinese noobs...they think they so good? yea...i seen them play....bringing Jesse tmr, hes the best PG of SAS, Varsity bball team. thats good. i hope i score more tmr also...i read the news today..it seems like 2008 is not a very pleasent year...earthquake...war conflict...economic crises....and natural disasters...how unfair is life...my title of todays SAT work. 'Do our lives change according to our decisions, or according to the things that happened around us." mayb we will know after reading the news...because i agree with the second part..ok i m waiting to get the piece of paper from ABRSM,i want to see y they fail me though...i might retake next year,but i dun feel like,cause i cant get Aural and Sight reading...I m sure i failed Aural, cause i cant hear the note, as in what the note is, so i sometimes wonder how i played the piano...am i tone deaf or something?

I wrote a new piano song today,but i tore it up and threw it away, because no one will appreacite it, and for me, its enough when i had it in my mind...nth else...i will enjoy it myself...A Song by Hawthorne Heights-Ohio is for lovers....i guess it is, never being there...but i like that song, mayb next time if i m in a better band in US, i will write something like that too, i always can, or mayb i should just use those songs i wrote days before.........

me, i m sensetive to some word such as. LOVE. FRIENDSHIP,RELATIONSHIP,HAppiness, JOy..etc...anything releated to that..so people plz, never talk about those words infront of me,because it hurts alot...

2009, i m one year older 17. i feel more pressured, because it means one year closer to the doors of university,,,which make me feel scared and nervous,because i dun think i can make it, not in all subjects......math and chem........no......i need to improve on math, and i duno y i always fail chem,,i just cant be able to find the reason....i need to find it somehow, i always approach the teacher for something i dunt know, but still, no one seems wanting to tell me the reason y i keep failing chem.....is it because of expression problems?

if is wasnt because of our band, i wun do apologise personally, although its a song for telling a girl its too late to apologise, but thats what all girls will cause to guys(not being sexist),but i have being through it, so i know, i know it deeply, personally.....