i duno,and i dun wana know....high skl is 2 years, and it will dertermine where u r goin in the furture. i already start to feell pressure, i duno where i m heading, and i also duno what i m getting for IB. maybe 25?or 30?i m not sure. i want a 30 and i m working towards it. well i guess i missed alot of fun stuff in high school. i dun need fun. study is the first place. yea n jimmy is right, i m sexist,but so he is racist that is worse then me. yea whats so good abt WILSON? y people like him? well personally, people who knows wilson says hes gay....lol...ok but i guess i have lost my direction in life...n i m finding it.....everytime after a test, when i know i didnt do well, i got scared...bcoz that will affect my results...
but now i guess i have found what i reali want...yea and thats to get into a good university...but still on the other hand,life sucks...sometimes i think death is the best way to work things out, many music says that too...i duno...what to choose...can someone tell me what is dream and what is real? still i got to study,SAT for american universities....i wun change my mind,i m goin to USA. sometimes i feel that there is no need for me to log on msn,bcoz no one talks to me, and i reli hope someone does..but no one will.....well lets say, if u go into H1r and ask'Who hates Alex"? let me tell u the answer will be everyone(except jinwoong and deokwon). but i know this is the answer, i will just be me, yea i m anti class, anti society bcoz i dun wan to merge into such a society,a place that cause the scars in me.................so like i said,kill me.............n i m gone forever..............
Dec 12, 2008
School life
damn. exam coming soon, after christmas. That is bad, i just had my math test today, i think i can pass, i dont know,i hope. school sucks, everyone goes against me. WTF have i done? i duno but why everyone hates me...!!!!well i had a english essay to write, work work work. not i m complaining but its the truth. high school is alot of work.
well in school life isnt that good too. there are always some people that wanted to go against me(people like jin en and Mirabelle). yea that bastared and that bitch, i dun mean to scold them or anything,but i reali dun like it. sometimes i know its against me everyone in class even joshua and wilson! yea i dun wana fight, y what the useof fighting back when nth is goin to change. 我惹不起我躲的起. yea so i say plz stop. yea u can say i suck at piano basketball or whatso ever, seriously i dun give a damn. sometimes i seems weak,but i m not, i will stand up to u one day i will i swear.
i had alot of pain in me, i duno how to express it,mayb using a blade and cut myself works, well it does. but i seriously hope someone will understand me. i dun need the whole class to accept me, but i want at least recognition. al i want is a smile or maybe a 'HI' or "Thankyou".thats all i m hoping for..........
well in school life isnt that good too. there are always some people that wanted to go against me(people like jin en and Mirabelle). yea that bastared and that bitch, i dun mean to scold them or anything,but i reali dun like it. sometimes i know its against me everyone in class even joshua and wilson! yea i dun wana fight, y what the useof fighting back when nth is goin to change. 我惹不起我躲的起. yea so i say plz stop. yea u can say i suck at piano basketball or whatso ever, seriously i dun give a damn. sometimes i seems weak,but i m not, i will stand up to u one day i will i swear.
i had alot of pain in me, i duno how to express it,mayb using a blade and cut myself works, well it does. but i seriously hope someone will understand me. i dun need the whole class to accept me, but i want at least recognition. al i want is a smile or maybe a 'HI' or "Thankyou".thats all i m hoping for..........
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