2008,2009=disaster

Thanks jeff, u r truely my bro, my best buddy, i guess u r the next guy who is the best to me after my family members, for you, i wun quit choir, i aint gay,but i respect friendship. i will keep all my unhappiness down in me,deep,never show it.

Got report card back today,shit man,it sucks. CHEM AND MATH.2...2 each,thats damn gay,out of 7. n for physics 4? i m not satisfyed enough, i want a five, i should get 4.lol. but business i got 7s, and i will maintain it, i totally give up on chem and math, yea i know its my problem, although ms fong said that everyone is bad this year, but this dun imply anything, if we cant get into university its not her problem, shes just here to help us,....same for mr evanno, i need to start working, to improve my results, i guess tmr i am ready to die, face teachers commands, i already can figure our what they will say to my mum, and back home, i will be screwed, everytime, or lets say every year before term 3 , its my worse year, but i always get better after term 2 ends, is this a trend? but this year seems different, everything is different. the subjects r much harder now(of course),but the best in our class, is like just pass...and the rest r like fail fail fail...what the heck os wrong this year..to everyone of us, some people wanted to ace this year, me too man, but we cant can we? does everyone agree this year is a disaster? or lets say starting from 2008, onwards, when we r still in S4, is this set? at the beginning of my life? i worked hard(mayb not enough),but i got nothing in return, this aint me, and for choir, thats another story, for band, bye bye, because i cant take this anymore seriously, i am breaking down everyday bit by bit.

i want to move on, but something blocks me, i cant find what it is, or see it, its some kind of invisble force...this year is a disaster...its hard,very hard...i am not sure what i can get for IB now, i got all together 27 for term 2 report, and 21 for term 1. so i am sure i can get 30 for term 3. all i need is to maintain english ar 5, business and chinese at 7, and improve physics to 5, and chem and business to 3 each, or 4. then i will beat 30..my aim....lets do it now...i still have time do i? i still have SAT, which is more more more more more more than IB> cant screw that man, or no more america dream university, than only one way left, SINGAPORE, that means i have to use IB, so both important........now i discovered that 7 is not hard to get...

this year is driving me insane, and i might break down anytime....i tried so hard, and got so far,but in the end, nothing matters.........