FRIENDS . I have seen through them

i finally know, who in the world cares abt my alot.My family. friends.....yea....i trusted them, but when u got into trouble with them or other trouble, they will leave u alone in the dark, to face the problem urself. i finally seen how stupid i have been.y...m i so stupid. is my IQ really 91? or is it 01?. damn god kill me, i regret, regret all the things i have done, foolishness...JImmy and Jeff. those who are quite close to me, now i finally see through them, i have seen the things that they;ve done. i see through everyone around me, even strangers. y cant everybody just be not selfish? Y is MONEY our first priority.y!!?? mayb i m wrong when i agree that money is everything, because what money causes is the broken up of friendship and also drive hatred. i hate it, i hate everyone, me myself, i hate myself, for being foolish, for showing 100%of myself to everyone, and in the end what did i get in return? NOTHING>>>>....its not i m begging for repay, but this world is actually a black world, its dark, negative. today on the way to returning the guitar, i think alot, thinking about all those things that happened in 2008, in these few days....die man.die. end this life bcoz i m tired and sick of it....死了算了.i should quit the band, i m not sure, very hard decision...i think i know who i am now, because i dun reali fight back to anything anyone...so thats y i got tricked by my best friends.....around me........life is unfair, not only to me, but to others too, rich are driving big SUVs on the road, while the poors are suffereing and begging....why does god made the world this way, sometimes i hope someone can talk to me, someone can really care abt me, but no one will, no one does....i tried so hard, and got so far, but in the end nth matters....sign....y do people treat me this way, y cant people to truthful and honest to each other? in that way, life and the world will be much better isnt it? but too bad, i guess no one can do it in the world....i have seen through this world..dark, black world...what else is there left for me in this world that make me stay...i aint blaming anyone or the world, i m just blaming life, because its unfair....totally unfair.....girls think i suck, boys think i suck...everyone think i suck...but do i really suck...? i m sorry, for all those thing for tht i have done....i feel like crying...very desprately....but i wun, i will keep it inside me...because it wunt work....