Fragile future 5

this year is important, i mean SAT, i should get full marks on grammer, because i should!
Well sry chong han, for what happened to u, i mean there are girls better than her, i know u thats u give in alot, or lets say contribute...man cheer up dun be like me, i m a failer, its natural, but u r so much better than me, i m sure u will get someone.

i m sleeping late everyday now, feeling very tired, sign, i dun have a choice do i, i want a good life, so must work hard now!!!! every exam and homework counts, math......i have being bad since young, but i understand, but somehow in exams, i always screw up, i need to find out y, man this life is boring, tell me something i m worth to live in this world for.

i am not sure how much i can take this anymore, not sure whats my aim now, i m lost, and i need to find my direction in life. can anyone tell me where the light is, someone guide me?
i m the oldest in the family, which means, i have the most reponsibiliy to my future, cause i will need to support the family when i grow up, but i m not sure if i can make it to university or not, i m close very close, this year at this date, i am like 30% from university gate, but the last 30% is the hardest, u may say i have being through this for 17 years, yes but i m afraid i cant make it to the final percent.........