What is my choice?

i wana quit choir, well people said i am not good at singing, then its better that i quit, instead of wasting my time there. right? i will satisfy u all...well for jeff, i am really really sorry, i mean i know u r SC but out skl is gay and stupid for the rules for SC. u shouldnt go to choir because of me, i apperciate that, alot,really. i dun wana leave choir too,but i dont have a choice do i? its those people, b4 i used to be defensive against every body,because i dun wana be hurt again.but should i quit? thought of it for the whole night, is this really what i want in life,what is that i am trying to acheive, i duno....today, got scolded,just because i command on our skl,but its true, i know what to say to the "teacher". he aint a teacher, hes the head of guards, our skl its not fair, and jimmy is leaving, i mean, i cant change skl now, duno what to do...y cant parents just understand?

Getting assinated on friday, will recieve very damn bad negative commands from teachers, like mr evanno, and ms fong, because i fucked up for this tow subjects, but i didnt want to,nobody wants to,but i somehow did it.....people have different blogs, but my is special, because no ones reads mine, only me. lol. anyways my 3s r getting better and more accurate, well i guess today i proved i am the one good at basketball...lol,but i played well today, i guess there has to be something i can do about for chem and math,like what ms fong said, chem is the worst subject of our whole class....i discovered that some or lets say most of my SAT practise questions r the same,what the heck is this man, waste my money.

i feel lonely,because i dun dare to look into the eyes of others,because i feel that all look at me in a werid way...i duno y...i have always had that feeling in my head.
these few days, or lets say this few weeks, i have memories of the past coming back to me, and all sorts of concepts that i learn in skl, every single scene, its so clear...everyword i said, and every expression of others...what does all this imply, i am not sure...mayb i didnt have bad memories after all.

Suppose to see ms chan chan today about choir stuffs, but i dun feel like going, because i feel that there is not big deal, i can settle this myself, and i made up my mind.QUIT OR NO QUIT?leave me to decide...

and to the world, drought, war, global warming, economic crises, this world we r in is dying.....

And now, i cant take this anymore, my SAT results varies.....my actual is about 1500?or what i duno,but i know i'd get higher. alright, at the princeton review i am learning the strategy, but i dun get it at all, i get nothing, i have being practising so so so so much, but i got nothing, everytime i do questions, i get mixed up and stuff, mayb i am really not that kind of exam person..i am on the edge of breaking down, i feel really stessed and tired..someone save me, i hate high skl, i have so many things to worry about, which i think i cant cope anymore,,,,....