Last Day of 2008-Reflection

last day of 2008 will end in one hour. then a brand new year will come for me...i guess i m doing fine in life,but new year means new start...failed piano exam,mayb the worse news of the end of 2008. i just cant believe it...nvm....school, i m afraid i will fail exams again....i dun think i m the kind of person that can face exam pressures, because everytime i went into the exam room, i know i will blankout and forgewt everything i have learned. i m not sure how i feel now...its hard to tell, the last blog, wrote as poem, i dun feel like doing it today,mayb some other times...but still i guess i can write something to symbolises my life this whole year...

Everyone is waiting, for the moment to come.....
Funny when things never change
Even when you say they will
But while your off screwing her
My life is standing still

You tell me that you love me
When I go to leave
You tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe

I know that you are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that you don't love me
I know I'm just for show

I don't know If I can stand
To see you love another Guy
You know that you broke my heart
You know that your my world

But while your standing by my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together
And Now I Am Telling You
I Am Sick OF this LIES
Your LIES...
So Stop telling me you NEED ME
Because i know you dont....

This is what love cause
Hatred and the death of me
when i am dead, you can find someone else
Who you really want
Love...I have being through it
And i Failed....
So I hate it...

Now the Winter Night is cold...
Once again....I Recall....
What I have done this year....
Here i am Apologising....
but is it too late?..
guess it is...
and i cant seem to believe that you have ever cared for me...

i know everything....
And now...this conversation is over....
So take everything away from me..
Slient ''Angel''...

I should just walk away...
Alone... and leave this world behind me...
Since there is Nothing more for me to stay behind...
I will remember the times we have shared...
we had the "happiness" together
And now thank You High 1 for the ''FriendShip"
Because you can have it back.......