god.!!nothing seems to work out here.!!my SAT why have i being screwing up for critical readin part? yes there are rules to it, i applied. i hate SAT reali hate it!
band rehersal on SATURDAY!!! need to choose 4 songs or 2(depends on the RFC admins). ok 15 minutes that way more that enough...em i guess we r doing shut up, only jimmy thinks we cant.

Sry chonghan man about ur relationship. it makes me more scared of falling into love, although its a good thing i know, but i have seen people around me, like CH, no insult, crying sadly, people breaking up, whats the point? i will say, dun even start it when u know it will end, y waste ur time and energy? u tell me?(not CH)???
i am sick and tired of life, i guess i need to find a reason to live. it makes me feel bad wehen friends cry. CH u can hold on forever, i cant. lol. but i do, i hate girls, every single one. because the hurt me b4, and.....make people laugh at me...!!!
i have scars that will not feel
i have wounds that will not heal
i have cuts on my hand that everyone can see.
but i also have pain that people dun understand
and they cant feel it
they dun care!!!!!!!
sometimes i duno whay i m here.? whats my mission? its driving me nuts, everything, another chemistty test next week, am i gona fail or pass?no idea...
msfong said i will pass, just believe, but believeing is easy, but doing it is hard, IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING? i dont reali agree to this, because it does not work for me, although i force myself not to hate chemistry and math, but i do, when it comes to hard topics, and also tests....it sucks, it reali sucks.

i want to find the reason,
find the reason why people hates me?
why why why why....?!!!
so how to save my life]becasuse i m dying.......