if i can turn back time, i would change everything
if i had study harder, i would have better results
if i had learn guitar instead of piano
if.....
many many if in life
i duno y , but somehow i cant change the things, math i have being failing ever since i got to middle school and now i am high school, i m still failing. 1 2 3 on the report card.....how am i going to apply for university with that result? man wilson ot 33 and i got 22. FUCK MAN, i dun think its fun,

whats the point of living when nothing works now, my SAT, sign, duno what i will get for the actual exam, someone help

May 2nd cant think of it, i dun dare to think of it, i wana write on chinese history but what to write?doin on physics? Astrophysics? not agreed by parents....
failed math like shit, cant imagine whats next, mean chem i got 10 out of 24, should get 16, feeling like killing myself,!!!!!!!!! y y always me,
i dun wana be the one the battle always choose
y am i always the one failing
y do i suck at so many things?
is there one thing i m good at?

i dont think so, i cant explain this feeling inside me, i wana scream, but no sound comes out of me, i wana cry, but my tears r frozen...

The image i see in my mind....
Hurts me like when a child dies...
i cant face everything around me
i try to forget it
but it keeps coming back to me...
i tried to scream, i tried to cry
and i am still gona try
but at this stage,when nothing matters
whats the point of living?
take me away, slient angel
i see darkness infront of me
i see hells door opening,
waiting for me to jump in...
i dont want to say goodbye
but whats my choice here
rather than saying goodbye?......

Joshua said he will help me with chem and math, thanks man, thanks to everyone who helped me in life, but this is a time, when i think life is meaningless to me, no point applying to university when i know i cant make it, when there r only 1s 2s and 3s appearing on th progress report of mine............